It would be today
that they would ring
but they haven't.
So that is gone.
Last month I thought
the email was
quite promising,
but it was the usual.
It gets harder
to keep trying,
to have some hope,
to care.
Because, obviously
something is wrong
with me that only
other people can see.
I told someone that
it felt like I had been ejected
from society and that
feeling is still there.
I should be at my peak,
now, should be running
something, while I seem
to be the one who's running.
It doesn't help
that I don't believe,
anymore, in the things
that I should.
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A work of fiction but with tendrils in reality.
